The Responsorial Psalm for Thursday of the Fourth Week of Lent has nice imagery which can be symbolic of someone in relapse.
Psalm 106:19–23: “At Horeb they fashioned a calf, worshiped a metal statue.
They exchanged their glorious God for the image of a grass-eating bull.
They forgot the God who saved them, who did great deeds in Egypt,
Amazing deeds in the land of Ham, fearsome deeds at the Red Sea.
He would have decreed their destruction, had not Moses, the chosen leader, Withstood him in the breach to turn back his destroying anger.”
The imagery describes the great chasm between those worshipping the One True God versus those who fashion a god for themselves. You have the freedom and liberty that sobriety gives you, and yet because of certain difficulties (“freedom isn’t free”) you turn away from it and slop at the trough of alcohol.
Which “fills your soul” better? The God that created you, or a “god” (the delusions and fantasies of alcohol)
of your own making?